Rose_of_Sharyn

Busy.

2006-02-06T06:29:00.000-08:00

I've been kinda busy lately, with Myspace and xanga. I still haven't fixed the links for here. Which I will do soon. Uh, there's not much going on. FCAT's coming up; tomorrow is the 10th grade writing test. the last time I had to take it was 8th grade. I got a 4.5 out of 6. Not bad, considering I thought I did terrible. The prompt was about whether or not they should allow gum in school. I was for it but I wrote against it only because there was more to write about if I was against it. With all the writing and vocabulary I've been doing lately I should do pretty well. I just hate when people MAKE me write. I like writing when it's not required. And later on this month is the reading and math. I have to pass to graduate. I'm not worried about the reading, but it might take me a few tries to pass the math. I'm in TA right now so I have to work on some stupid worksheet. More later.

New Year's.

2006-01-03T06:50:00.000-08:00

Well, I know no one reads this. So it doesn't matter much whether or not I keep up with this. But I will. Since this was my first ever blog. It's got a uh, "special" place in my heart. Heh. Anywho, this is day 2 of the new diet. I'm doing okay, it's only making me a little sick. I felt uber sick this morning but, I'm okay.

Invade Canada!

2005-12-05T06:47:00.000-08:00

Well, I guess I attract bad things. I don't know what's wrong with me. Bad karma I think. Well, he told me his liked me. But the dumbass didn't think to mention that he wants come chick from Canada. I dunno if it's the same girl, but damn. He's making me hate fucking Canada though. Niagra is gorgeous though. I want to go back. I think Spring Break we're going to Key West. Damn, got off topic. Well he told me about her. And, uh, like totally killed me. Stupid me for thinking I found a nice boy. He tops the child molester though. Atleast he didn't do it to my face. I feel so stupid though. I still like him. I'm mad at him, I want to kick his ass, but feelings haven't changed. He probably thinks they have though. I don't think he reads this so I'm safe.

News...

2005-11-07T09:48:00.000-08:00

Well, there is a lot of stuff going on. Last week was Homecoming week. We, I think, won the game against Wildwood. I haven't been keeping up on here. I'll try harder to keep this going. I'll write more tonight when I have time.

Even MORE Quizzes.

2005-10-19T17:50:00.000-07:00

your a dark magic user! you are pure evil, and hate
all things except for darkness. you are very
skeptical of people, and probably in the past
you have been hurt. when you trust, you trust
deeply and with all your heart.

what would you be in a fantasy world? (amazing pics!)
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Morpheus

?? Which Of The Greek Gods Are You ??
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Each generation, four randomly chosen members of
your family are born with the power to see into
the future. You are one of the chosen members.
There is a curse that goes along with this
power though. You never see anything good in
the future. All you see is the bad. The curse
also states that if you kiss a member of the
opposite sex then that person's fate is taken
into the hands of the curse and a limit is put
to their life span. Is there a way to break
this curse? Or are you destined for a life of
solitude...

What curse do you possess?
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A few more Quizzes.

2005-10-17T08:17:00.000-07:00

Which deadly sin do you represent? (Angel Sanctuary Pics)
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Spirit, Your power comes from within.. you emotions
fuel it.. be warned let your emotions run wild
and you power will become wild...

What magic best fits you?
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There is a Chimaera in you. You have a lot of
personality's. This makes you feel save. This
also makes you confused from time to time. You
hold all your feelings for yourselve and
sometimes it bothers you that people don't
understand you. Be a bit more opener so that
people can see the real you, they will like t
and I'm sure you will like it as well.
Understand that people have to take you the way
they are, you are a great person so don't be
afraid. Nobody's perfect ;)

What Mystical Creature is in your soul? ( With Pictures)
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You're fear is simple....you fear the fact that you
are capable of fearing...I admire people like
you, you have a beautiful mind, but watch out
because one day you will incounter you're fear,
or maybe it will find you...

You're greatest Fear...
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Moo.

2005-10-10T10:12:00.000-07:00

Nothing much has been going on. I saw Brian at McDonald's. What a broke LOSER. That's what happens when you don't pay attention in school. You end up making hamburgers for me. XD Kayla's walking around today in her Snack Faerie outfit today. Which only consists of a furry tiara and a wand. She'll get her tutu soon. Jesika is already trying to jump on Jeff. My God, how many times do you have to tell that girl no? What a stalker. I've printing out Link now. I've got 1-6 and 11 right now. I didn't want to print it all at once. It's like 8 pages for one ep! And Matty has decided to continue with it too! Yay. Though I won't be able to use that excuse to not write.

Another Quiz.

2005-10-04T20:29:00.000-07:00

*[HAVE YOU EVER..]*
been kissed..	Yes.
lied to a friend..	No.
dyed ur hair	Uh.. yeah.
dressed punk	I am right now actually.
kissed a girl	No.
saw something u didnt want to	Yes.
danced in the rain	Yes.
lied to ur parents	Yes.
went barefoot in the snow	No.
played hockey	No.
made ur own clothes	No.
*[IN THE LAST 24 HOURS..]*
got in a fite	Yes.
took a shower	Yes.
gave a dirty look to someone	Yes.
cried=(	Yes.
did a cartwheel	No.
went to school	Yes.
shopped	Yes.
danced	Yes.
got sick	No.
did something u regret	Yes.
discovered something new	Yes.
*[IN SCHOOL YOU...]*
run to class because ur always late	No.
act perfect	No.
act hyper	Yes.
are a nerd	...a little.
in band??	No.
*[RIGHT NOW UR..]*
in ur pjs	Yes.
drinkin	Yes. Orange soda.
listening to music	Yes.
watching a movie	No.
iming someone	Yes. Jeff actually...
talkin on the fone	No.
eating	No.
*[CLOTHES..]*
hot topic or abercrombie and fitch	Hot Topic.
thongs or briefs	Thongs.
boxers anyone?!?!	For bed, yup!
sweatpants or jeans	Jeans.
longsleeved shirts or short sleeve	Short Sleeve.
tube tops or tanks	Tanks.
*[CURRENTLY .. ]*
current clothes	My Jammies. Sliver silky pants and a black tank.
current mood	Lonely.
current music	Seether ft. Amy Lee - Broken
current taste	Taste...?
current make-up	Nothing.
current thing I ought to be doing	....Nothing.
*[ LAST PERSON .. ]*
you hugged	Jonathan
yelled at	My sister.
IMed.	Jeff.
you touched	Cody.
*[ EiTHER/0R .. ]*
coffee or hot chocolate	Coffee.
big or little	Big.
lace or satin	Satin.
new or old	New.
vogue or cosmopolitan	Vogue.
skirt or dress	Skirt.
wool or cotton	Cotton.
*[DO YOU..]*
put on a "front"	Uh... yeah I guess.
have a crush on someone	Yup. That HOT usher at Regal 16 named Evan.
if u got a tatoo where wud u get it	I want atleast one on my back and one on my ankle.
*[RANDOM QUESTiONS..]*
waht is the online symbol u use the most	XD
u have a boyfriend or girlfiend	Neither.
who's hotter, Josh Hartnett or Chad Michael Murray	Neither. I loves Billie Joe and Gerard.
what was the last thing you said	"Can I use your 'puter?"
who would u want to be stuck in an elevator with	Uh.
do you like stickers	Yup.
do u play with mad libs wen ur bored	Yeah.
are you suicidal	Maybe.
is your window open	No.
what was the last pair of shoes you bought	Flip-flops at Payless.
do you have a little brother	Yes.
does he draw you cute pictures	Yes.
where do your grandparents live	Hell.
what do you think of when you hear the word click	Something working right...
are you a moron	Sometimes.
do you like trampolines	Yes.
have u ever accidentally sucked something up in the vacuum	Yes, my puppy!
did you see American Pie 2	No.
do you cut yourself	Used to.
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Bored.

2005-09-30T10:14:00.000-07:00

Eh, I'm killing some time in 1st today. Mom's picking me up after school. Going to sucker her into taking me to the movies. Hopefully, it'll work, dunno if it will or not. OMG, Bryan actually had a conversation with me. I dunno if he talked to me just to make fun of me or if he was flirting with me. >.< Hopefully, he was flirting with me. I SO don't want Pat and Ernest to be the only guys that actually like me. That so doesn't make me feel better. Not at all. Hopefully, I can go to the movies, even if it will only be with Tia and Patrick.. and probably his brother, who, btw spent the entire movie last friday staring at meeee. -_- Not cool!!! I mean, ew.

Eh.

2005-09-28T10:07:00.000-07:00

Well, apparently I'm "destined" to be with Ernest...HA! Very funny. If that's my "destiny" then I hope I die with 28 cats and a house that smells like cabbage. That is the worst thing anyone's ever said to me... got to go. Teacher's coming.

More Stuff.

2005-09-27T09:51:00.000-07:00

Well, it's been awhile since I've posted here. Actually, I haven't been posting anywhere. I'm in class right now. 1st block. So far, still maleless. Last Friday, the 23rd we went to see Corpse Bride, which was really good. I thought it was going to be pointless like The Nightmare Before Christmas. I mean the story of that movie was pointless but, I did like the characters. Jack, Lock Stock and Barrel, Zero. I just didn't like the fact that they were messing with Christmas. But the Corpse Bride was really cute, and funny. I went with: Elizabeth, Mikie, Tia, Patrick, Mikey, Jon, Tim, Ashley, Felicia, and Cassie. We had fun even without the movie. Now, Jon is trying to get Tim to go with us to Howl-O-Scream either the 14th or the 28th. I'm not sure which because my steo-dad has to find a hotel first. He doesn't want to drive home at 3 in the morning. Neither do I. Not exactly sure about whos going I will have to get back to you on that. Oh, and Matty sent me his new story. Uber Cuteness! Later.

Party Update.

2005-09-20T07:16:00.000-07:00

Well, we had Mikie's party Saturday. Liki Tiki condos are SO awesome. I mean I so wanted to steal that plasma tv. It was very tempting. Porky, Tabitha (Ew.), Jesika's family, JT, and Kayla came to the party and slept over. More later.

Mooz!

2005-09-14T10:14:00.000-07:00

Okay, since I haven't posted in like FOREVER. Here's another lil update:
Mikie's birthday is this Saturday. Kayla's going with me XD. We're going to Orlando's Liki Tiki Village. And I'll going to sing karoke! I think I'll sing Ghostbusters just as a joke. And maybe embarrass Mikie a little too. My hair is now naturally colored. Dirty blonde. Next Friday we all are going to see Corpse Bride. And the 14th of October we're all going to Busch Gardens for Howl-O-Scream. (No school that Friday.) So far Christy, Porky, Felicia, and Christina are coming. Not sure yet about anyone else. We had our first Drama Club meeting last Thursday. It was fun. I'm uber glad that I went. Kayla did her "I like to randomly shout out crap!" Infront of the entire club, on my request of course. And I like to do my happy dance. XD Woohooness!

Woohooness!

2005-08-30T21:05:00.000-07:00

Omfg, what a cutie. >.< Andrew I mean. You SO have to give him props for even putting up with me. And then earlier he was hinting around to me like, "Let me know when you change your mind. I'd like to have a girlfriend sometime soon." Aww, I dunno. Right now, I can't see that happening. I'm going to have to do more things around him to get used to him. I'm so used to talking to him. Just have to get used to other things. And I'm stilling trying to get over... other things. It's not as easy as you might think. I'm always weary about a guy whos interested in me. I'm not trying to be modest or anything but I really don't get it why he even likes me anyway. So many other, pretty girls. I don't happen to be one of them. But apparently, he thinks so. Whatever. Anywho, we're all going to see Corpse Bride when it comes out on the 23rd. (Christina, Felicia, Kayla, Christy, Donna(?), Andrew.) And we're all going to freakin' Howl-O-Scream in October!!!!! Yay! (Basically, the same people.) So when it gets closer to those dates I will let you know and I joinned the Drama club and FFEA (Florida Future Educators of America) Why do they always leave out the "of"?

A Little Up-Date.

2005-08-24T15:34:00.000-07:00

Quite a bit has been going on so I'm going to try to go over everything.
Nick.
Haven't talked to him in a while. So I don't really know what's going on. Apparently though he's moved out of his mom's place.
Matty.
Matty's having some problems with Kat. I think she may be interested in going out with someone else I don't know.
Teddy.
He's a butt sometimes but, he's knows I loves him. XD
Felicia.
Beats the crap outta me. But I think she's coming to Mikie's birthday party the 17th so we should have fun. XD
Christina.
Ugh, Wes is UBER hot! I hope she gets him.
Andrew.
I dunno what's with this boy. I think he drove by the house this morning when I was at the bus stop. Honking like crazy at me. Dweeb.
Kayla.
I'm still on my quest to make her come to Howl-O-Scream. Christina and Felicia are coming so far, I think Andrew too. Dunno.

"Heck yes, I didn't!"

Jesika.
She's ready to get her ass kicked. Ms.I've-Got-A-Big-Motherf'ing-Mouth.
Sara.
Well apparently she wants to kick my ass. So says Sarah Midcap. But Sara hasn't said anything to me so, I'm assuming that she's to scared to actually do anything about it.
Jeff.
-_- This is a very old subject. The "I'm going to be 18" excuse is very old. All the boys I've dated are older than him so I know that's some damn cover up LIE. Come out with it. What's the truth?

Survery.

2005-08-24T12:02:00.000-07:00

*TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey*
Name:	Emily Reed
Birthday:	May 30th
Birthplace:	Springfield, MI
Current Location:	Belleview, Fl
Eye Color:	Uh, depends on you. Sometimes people say their blue, gray, gree, etc.
Hair Color:	Multicolored right now. Going natural soon.
Height:	5" 3'
Right Handed or Left Handed:	Right
Your Heritage:	French, Irish
The Shoes You Wore Today:	Vansss.
Your Weakness:	Hm, Math and a few people I know...
Your Fears:	Being alone/Creepy dead chicks that climb out of TV's.
Your Perfect Pizza:	Pepperoni and uber lots of sauce!
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year:	Uh, save up to get my laptop! (Maybe go to a few parties...)
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger:	WTF?!?!?!
Thoughts First Waking Up:	"Is it time for bed yet?"
Your Best Physical Feature:	Uh, I don't think I have one.
Your Bedtime:	10:00-10:30 On school days.
Your Most Missed Memory:	...
Pepsi or Coke:	Coke.
MacDonalds or Burger King:	Burger King.
Single or Group Dates:	Dates (Groupies..nooo).
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea:	Nestea.
Chocolate or Vanilla:	Chocolate... dumb question.
Cappuccino or Coffee:	Coffee.
Do you Smoke:	No.
Do you Swear:	Yup.
Do you Sing:	Yup, when no one's around.
Do you Shower Daily:	Yup.
Have you Been in Love:	Yup, to a few uber losers tho.
Do you want to go to College:	Yup.
Do you want to get Married:	Yup.
Do you belive in yourself:	Sometimes.
Do you get Motion Sickness:	Yup.
Do you think you are Attractive:	Nope.
Are you a Health Freak:	Nope.
Do you get along with your Parents:	Yup.
Do you like Thunderstorms:	Yup.
Do you play an Instrument:	Used to.
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol:	Nope.
In the past month have you Smoked:	Nope.
In the past month have you been on Drugs:	Nope.
In the past month have you gone on a Date:	Yup.
In the past month have you gone to a Mall:	Yup. (went Saturday XD)
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos:	Yup. (damn female hormones...)
In the past month have you eaten Sushi:	Nope.
In the past month have you been on Stage:	Nope.
In the past month have you been Dumped:	Nope.
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping:	Nope.
In the past month have you Stolen Anything:	Nope.
Ever been Drunk:	Nope.
Ever been called a Tease:	Yup.
Ever been Beaten up:	Nope.
Ever Shoplifted:	Nope.
How do you want to Die:	In my sleep/with someone I love.
What do you want to be when you Grow Up:	Teacher.
What country would you most like to Visit:	Italy. (Uber romantic.)
*In a Boy/Girl..*
Favourite Eye Color:	Any color.
Favourite Hair Color:	Any color.
Short or Long Hair:	Either one.
Height:	Taller than me atleast.
Weight:	Don't matter.
Best Clothing Style:	Uh, anything that looks good on him.
Number of Drugs I have taken:	None.
Number of CDs I own:	About 25.
Number of Piercings:	5.
Number of Tattoos:	None yet.
Number of things in my Past I Regret:	A lot.
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More Quizzes.

2005-08-24T08:24:00.000-07:00

May,
Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly
motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered.
Attracts others and loves attention. Deep
feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally.
Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Easily
consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to
dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding.
Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good
imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing.
Loves literature and the arts. Loves traveling.
Dislike being at home. Restless. Not having
many children.Hardworking. High spirited.
Spendthrift.

What does your birth month reveal about you? (read memo)
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Your soul has Amazing wings!

Your always very determined to get what
you want, and you never seem to give up.
Your very good at the things you do,
and you can always make a friend
smile.
Your wings give off a strength that no one
else could ever have, no matter how hard they try.

A quote: We won't be doing that now will
we? You've got a strict mommy now! The bathroom
is over there got it?

What kind of wings does YOUR soul have?(anime pics!!)
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MYSTIC BEAUTY - You are eccentric, enigmatic, and
intriguing. You keep to yourself and so no one
knows the real you. You prefer the solace and
quiet of your own company over big crowds of
people. You are highly intelligent but you do
everything your own way. You come off as quirky
or weird and most people don't understand you
at all. You are probably a little disorganized.
You probably also seem distant and dreamy but
that's because you're off in your own little
world.

What type of beauty do you possess? (20 questions + 7 results + pretty pics)
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People view you as a Loner Artist. Loner Aritist
are exactly as their title says, loners and
artist. Now you are not alone by choice but
many people find you odd. This only bothers you
when you're in a public place like a dance club
or a crowded lunchroom so you tend to steer
clear of those places. You might have a friend
or two but they're either Loner Artists like
you or Truly Dark. Fear not! So many artists
are not appreciated in their own times!

What Do People Truly See You As? (lots of outcomes and stunning pictures)
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Your soul is BLACK!
"Dignified and impressive without being showy,
you want to give the appearance of mystery, but
their preference may also indicate a
suppression of desires and worldly aims,
suggesting hidden depths and inner
longings."

What color is your soul and what does it say about you? ~anime pics~
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You love him but you are not sure. Is he the one
you want to spend your life with?

What do you really feel for him? (girls only)
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You're crying because you've had to say goodbye to
someone, and your heart has been broken because
of it. You feel like you've been treated
unfairly and you're tired of people telling you
to get over it. It's very hard for you to just
jump into new relationships or friedships
because you're sick of having you're heart
broken. You just want to rewind everything and
start over. And that is why you're crying.

Why are you crying? (beautiful pics)
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~*~Result nr 10~*~

Your power is: Time Control

Explanation: You have the ability to
freeze, push forward or go back in time. In
good purposes it is used to prevent bad deeds,
and the opposite for evil purposes.
As a person your emotional level has been on
hold. For one reason or another emotions has
reduced and now you aren't so full of life. And
of course, this does not sadden you since you
could care less. Sometimes though you can be
hit by emotioal waves inside but you block it
all out. You don't search for something that
could make you happy since you have no hope in
that area any longer. People probably see you
as annoying because you're not involved and
just stand there. You probably don't have that
many friends either, and you feel like you are
with them because that's what you normally do.
You stick to your habits and don't appreciate
changes.
Negative aspects: One day all emotions
are gonna surface again, and that day will be
very painful. Instead it is more wise to start
up the emotional level bit by bit, so it won't
come as a big chock.

What Power is Compatible With You? [beautiful anime pictures + 12 detailed results]
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What's new.

2005-08-06T21:00:00.000-07:00

Well, I don't know if I should be mad that Andrew blew me off. He's probably skating right now... still. Anyway, I wrote Jeff about Jesika. I don't think he'll actually write me back tho. We'll see.

Mini-News Update

2005-08-06T16:56:00.000-07:00

Well, there's a lot going on so, I'll try to write everything as I remember them.

Friday I read Nicky's xanga, and I think I've come to a very smart conclusion. I've decided to stop talking to him a lot. Which I don't see him all that much. Because of his mom. But I read his post and all the stuff with Steph and Avalon. There's really no room for me. I completely understand that. I have to stop lying to myself. I know he's not interested in me. I have to stop talking to him or I'll never get over him.

The story of me and Jeff continues. Last night Felicia, Elizabeth, and I went skating. David was there and let me in on some interesting information about Jesika and Jeff. See last week Jesika decided that she was going to ask Jeff out to see if he was lying to me or if he really ment it. Well, the only answer he gave her was "I have to think about it." Which is just as bad as saying yes. Lately me and Jesika have been writing notes to each other. And she wrote me and told me that she wasn't interested in Jeff, and that she wasn't going to flirt with him. Well, last night David told me he went to Jeff's (They live in the same neighbourhood) he was talking to Jesika on the phone saying stuff like, "You're sexy" and crap like that. Well, she better watch it or I'll tell her father. Jeff better hope he doesn't see me anytime soon because he's going to get it.

A good thing happened last night though. Jeff's "friend" Andrew and I hit it OFF. He's so cute too. Army, plays guitar. Totally my type. I'm going to call him around six and we might go see a movie next week sometime. I'll let you know.

This year's schedule.

2005-08-05T23:10:00.000-07:00

Well, this year they've changed it up a bit. Instead of three classes a day (for one semester), we've got six classes all year. Mine are:
Teacher Assistant 1
Health Science
Lunch 01
Biology 1
Geometry
World History
English 2

Ugh, great...

2005-08-03T10:34:00.000-07:00

Well, yay me. I'm offically an ungrateful child. According to Dad/Step-Dad. But, whatever. I'm getting my room switched. Which isn't that big of a deal to me. It's the "Your ungrateful" that bothers me. No one decided to give me a reason WHY. But, whatever.

Omg..

2005-07-26T22:41:00.000-07:00

I have been so moody lately. And it's not hormones. I think it's because I worry about so many things. Poor Nicky, I feel bad that he has to live the way he does. But what doesn't kill you makes you stronger. Baby, you'll kick some ass... just wait. I feel like I'm wasting my time on the guys I like. Omg, don't get me started on Jeff. I think he's cute in a quirky kinda way. He's funny. But I know I'm stupid for trying to get his attention. It's like trying to get a 5 year old to take a nap. It's SO not happening. Since I've known Nicky, it's about 4 years now, I've always felt like I was fighting for something that wasn't ever going to be mine. But I can't help falling for him EVERY single time I talk to him. He's like a plague. Always making me estatic. But then, he leaves... and I'm back to completely moody, until I see him again. I never sure how he really feels about me, I've never actually came out and said I'd loved him well, I have but, I dunno if he does take it seriously. I mean it seriously. I would never lie... I'm just really confused. :(

Uh.

2005-07-21T12:18:00.000-07:00

I dunno why I even bother doing myspace... I'm too lazy to even keep up with this. I had to type this big thing for my step-dad for his birthday. (Today.) I'll post it on here. Uh, I haven't been skating in like three weeks so I think I'll do that tomorrow. My brother and sister are back from St. Augustine. Atleast someone went on a vaca. this summer. -_-

MySpace

2005-07-14T18:17:00.000-07:00

Find me on MySpace and be my friend!

Pre-Independence Day

2005-07-01T23:41:00.000-07:00

Well, again things have gone really fast with Chris. When we first met it was like.. well, we didn't get along. Then I was totally crushing, then we hated each other and now I'm doing more than crushing. I don't really know what to think tho. I always thought of him more as a one-night stand kinda guy. That's changed a lot. I do think he's interested more than just a fling. But I'm still really iffy about the how cyber thing. Uh, that's not really how Emily works. No, not really. Now that would be a completely different story if we were well, "together". Well, if we actually lived in the same state. It's uber werid for me to type what I'm doing. And I don't think that's going anyway anytime soon.

It's been so long...

2005-06-19T21:41:00.000-07:00

At the moment I really don't have a whole lot to do. And I don't have a whole lot of people that I can talk to. I've been relying on the music I've been listening to. Believe it or not there's only two people that live near me that I feel comfortable talking to. I mean really talking to. I dumped my boyfriend of two months. Because he decided his 16 year old girlfriend wasn't enough so he started macking on his girlfriend's 11 year old sister. ASSHOLE! And that's the G rated verison of what I think about him. I wish he'd drop dead. But whatever.

Well, so much for that happy ending.

2005-06-11T15:07:00.000-07:00

"Oh, I love you so much. I'd never leave you or hurt you. I commit only to you."

BULL!
What a liar. If you didn't already know I broke up with whatshisname. Huh, can't even remember what it was... More like he was interested in commiting his mouth on my sister, and the neighbour girl. I do hope he knows he could go to jail. Even if he's not 18, which he will be in like three months.I know it's been awhile since I've updated this so. Dun get mad at me or anything. Moo. >.<>Anywho, I gots to go (on a computer in the library). Laters!

~sighs~

2005-04-20T17:20:00.000-07:00

I wish I could tell Johnny what I'm so worried about. But I dunno if he would understand even if I told him. OMG, I didn't even post that he asked me out. >.< I'm friggin' stupid. But yeah, he did. Why? Even I don't know. I guess that's my big problem. The fact that since I was really little I never really understood why people would think I'm cute. And now I wonder why the opposite sex would even consider me attractive. One of the big reasons why I'm even bothering losing weight is because I really, deep down, do care what people think about me. Well, honestly, I really only care about what Johnny thinks. I don't really give a shit about what people at school thinks. Well, that's better. I had to tell someone that. If I told Felicia or Christina, Johnny would call them and find out what I was chewing my thumb nail for last night. I don't usually chew my finger nails. I guess I'm still waiting to wake-up, I feel like I've been dreaming for like the last two weeks. I was so scared when I first met him that he'd just ditch me. ....Anywho, I hungries. Baiiiiiii!

Ewness....

2005-03-31T13:52:00.000-08:00

Ugh, reduced to using a public computer in a public library. THE HORROR!!! Anywho, this place always makes me nervous. I always think theirs someone watching me. ~shivers~ And this wanna be this is next to me banging his head like he's some real rocker. The world is full of them unfortunatly. Anywho, time to take more quizzes!!!!

New Update.

2005-03-31T06:26:00.000-08:00

Gawd, I just had a whole paragraph here. But anyway, I'm going skating tomorrow night with Felicia.

Ew.

2005-03-02T14:41:00.000-08:00

I have been reduced to using a computer in a public library. The horror! But anyway other than that I've been okay. Life's pretty dull if your me. I started rewriting the beginning of Chaos only because I know Matty wants to read it. Whatever. The beginning I have saved on on my computer now is really corny. The one I started writing in my Algebra class seems to sound a lot more like something I would write. The other sounds like someone else wrote it for me. Mom's coming. Later Dayz.

Back. I didn't want my mom to see some of the stuff I wrote. Eh, she might take me to some old Catholic church and try and get me "saved." I might go later to Quizilla and hehe, see if anymore of those quizes say that I need to totally be back in a mental hospital. Not that I was ever there of course. ~sideways glance~ I dunno, all the ones I take say that I've got like hidden anger or something. Which I know I don't. But then you can't take those seriously they were just made up by some nerdy kid. Then again, I must be pretty nerdy if I like to take them. Shannon SERIOUSLY shattered all hopes of getting out of Ms. Abbey's class. I swear, that woman IS the spawn of Satan. Maybe she's related to Mom? That's something even DaVinci couldn't figure out.... Speaking of DaVinci I saw a video on him. The man was a genius, but he was a 15th century Michael Jackson. Yeah, he liked the little boys. How gross. But so far he's the only artist I know of that didn't try to commit suicide atleast once. That's got to make up for something right? I mean Van Gogh used to eat his own paint. Which of course gave him lead poisoning. AND he cut off his own ear for some erm, hooker. Nice life, huh? Anywhos, later for good now.

Poems.

2005-02-26T18:45:00.000-08:00

The Battle Between Good & Evil
By Christy Compton
12-1-04

Fallen from above,
angels fly.
Coming from below,
hell cries.
Prepared to battle,
who will win?
Their swords are sharp;
like brand new.
Heading towards each other,
running and flying in the wind.
The middle of the battle;
no one's dead yet...
Coming to a close,
still the same results.
Finally, they realize no one can die.
They give up.
they decide the fued between the two should end.
Stay in their own boundaries where they belong.
If ever collided,
peaceful, friendly talk will come to be.

Midnight Mistress
I don't know who wrote this.

Alone in the park,
gazing into the dark,
what spell does the moon hold on me?
Since you've always despised
bright sun-kisses skies
only the mystifying nights leave me in your company.
Your soul is so compelling.
My love, there is no telling,
how far I will let you take me.
Coaxingly. you pull me near,
gently whispering in my ear.
Promising to give me enternity.
You vow to grant all my wishes.,
while covering me in kisses,
as you elegantly sweep me into your arms.
Then into the night together we take flight,
while I'm trapped in your enticing charm.
Our lust is a flame,
wildy burning untamed
as you seduce me with a feverish caress.
You trace my lips with your finger.
Into my eyes your gaze lingers,
before we collapse into passion enshadowed by darkness.
As my mortality dies;
your name my soul cries.
As I succumb to you with sign of resistance.
Though once alone forlorn,
my passion has been reborn
as I am enrobed by your nocturnal existence.
Through the exchange of dark blood,
in my veins your heart floods,
down my cheek the blood-stained tears.
Through tainted with pain,
the pleasure remains
and I know this unification can never be undone.
You have lured me away
from the light of day
with the enchantment of your fatal kiss.
My heart has surrendered
to your wicked splendor
as I become your midnight mistress.

Mr. Stitch
Urban Legend (not written by me).

This secret promise, I swear to keep.
Shared in trust, then buried deep.
Cross my heart and hope to die.
Stick a needle in my eye.
If I should tell a living soul,
May Mr. Stitch come take his toll.
And while I lay asleep in bed;
seal my lips with sewing thread.

Fallen Angel
by Akaikawa Natalie Anastasia

Interrupting my ascension into Heaven
They had ripped me from my fate
held back on this plane by unbreakable chains
I am not allowed to return
My wings blackened by the unhold light of this existence
Darkness covers the aura that surrounded me
Blinding my head from every emotion
My eyes lacking sign of life
A darker prophecy shadows my existence
One of which I have yet to learn
"On the day of her birth, she will be Reborn as the Red River."

Royal Fire
Author Unknown

I survive in the spirit of the Firefly's greatest treasure
Within her I have the strength to fight within the stars
I survive with the will in the sacred one
Giving me the dtermination to live on
I survive together with the whispers of the sovereign
Allowing me to be hidden and unharmed
I am the last of a legendary people
Of whom suffered their fate at the hands of the sun
100,000 years have passed since I last saw the light
For I have remained in the darkness for all eternity
This will be my last change to be free, for I am
"The last born goddess of the ancient Royal Fire."

Venting.

2005-02-25T08:03:00.000-08:00

I feel like I'm... alone. It's this constant feeling I can't get rid of. And I don't know why, because I'm almost never physically alone. I don't really know how to explain it. I can't sleep at night, I'm depressed at school. People may not know it; I put on my happy face partly because I don't want anyone to ask any questions and partly because Caitlyn's already worried that she maybe, well you know. I've been so preoccupied with other things that I haven't really been paying attention to my blog. But I know I need it or I'll explode. It doesn't really hurt as much now that I know Jeff dun really like me. He didn't say it in those words but I can tell. It's a chick thing. I tried to keep telling myself he's just shy, and so has everyone else. But it's not him. It's always been me. I hate to sound dramatic but it's these walls I've built around myself over the years. A few people can get through but most people I meet now have no chance. Not that a lot of them would want it.

New Up-Dates.

2005-02-24T10:05:00.000-08:00

I haven't posted in awhile. I sorry! Not a whole lot has been going on. I'm, currently in my Keyboarding class. We have a sub, so that's why I'm able to post. Our regular teacher only gives us like 2 seconds of free time. The witch. Anyway, we're spending the day in Daytona Saturday. To use the pools/jacuzzi/weight room at the resort. I'm so gonna soak all day. Might invite someone to come with since my brother and sister are going to Cypress Gardens with Satan (Their mom.) I'll post some more later. Baiiiz.

Like Wow!

2005-01-31T17:13:00.000-08:00

I spent the day at home today. And it did me such a world of good. (BTW, I was not playing hookie, I have a cough that sounds like a freight train -_-) Hehe, I think it's so cute that Nicky has lil crushes on all these punk boys... ~screams~ OMG! We're going to be fighting over guys and chicks aren't we?! Damn you cruel fate. Well, we dun have the same taste in girls do we? He seems to fall for the suicidle ones, huh? Erm, Nah, I'm totally normal! ~sideways glance~ But anyway, I've got SO much stuff planned for Chaos. It's going to take me forever. -_- Lots of good stuff! Oh, and I've lost 17 lbs in 3 and half weeks. Woohooness! Don't buy me chocolate for Valentine's either.. can't eat it. I'd rather have a big teddy. ~hint hint~

Omg!!

2005-01-24T18:01:00.000-08:00

So far, my new year has not impressed me. The only thing I really like so far is my Art class. Which is still pretty boring. I'm writing habits are depressing me as well. Chaos Vol. 2 has been three paragraphs since like last May. It's terrible. I've been watching I Love the 90's ALL THE TIME. Which is turning me into a smart-ass more and more everyday. I just finished reading everyone's xanga. Since everyone else's AIM isn't working then I guess I'll have to read up more. I don't understand how so many people can misinterperate Nicky. He is so far from being suicidial. And if they think he'll do it, then the only things that would push him to that extreme would be his ELDERS treating him like some fucking pyshco. He always has to remember that he has friends who love him. I still love him. Omg, and if Matty loses it then who'll take care of me when I lose it? Sweetie I'll always need you! ~huggle~

Post-Christmas Update.

2004-12-28T19:13:00.000-08:00

First of all I'm going to list all the things I got, and who gave them to me. I hope I can remember them all.
1*Gameboy Advanced SP(red) (From Dad/Stepdad)
2*Van Helsing (From Dad/Stepdad)
3*Final Fantasy 1&2 Dawn of Souls (From Dad/Stepdad)
4*Five ear piercings/nose piercing (From Dad/Stepdad)
5*Anywhere But Home by Evanescence (From Mikie)
6*Now 17 (From Dad/Stepdad)
7*Three pack of Body Fantasy spray (Dad/Stepdad)
8*Alice In Wonderland purse (Dad/Stepdad)
9*Sliver ring (Elizabeth)
10*The Time-Turner from HP3 (Dad/Stepdad)
11*Plastic carrying case and beads for making my animal key chains (Dad/Stepdad)
12*Orlando Bloom Door Poster (HOTTIE!) (Dad/Stepdad)
13*"Some Like It Hot" jammies (Mom)
14*Shrek 2 (Mom)
15*Orlando Bloom door poster (Mom)
16*Lite Pink jammies (Auntie)
17*"Ooh La La" slippers (Auntie)
18* 20$ gift card at Rhino Games (Mom)
19* 20$ (Uncle Paul)
20* 25$ (Granny)

Made out pretty well this year. I'd be extremely happy though if I could get ahold of Jeffy. I miss you! :( What did you have to ask me anyway?

BTW that clock down there is wrong for some reason.. it's 10:25 pm.

Hmm.

2004-12-19T19:14:00.000-08:00

I was talking to Nicky, Friday. He told me about his day with Avalon and how he couldn't stand the fact that he actually had to go back home. I know how he is about the home life or lack there of. For a long while I did feel bad for him. Atleast I get along with one of my parents. He doesn't at all. But after awhile I realized, he's not seriously bad off at all. I mean, so, his mom won't let him get his eyebrow pierced or she can't stand giving him anything he wants. He only has a few years left of "childhood" and he can legally go anywhere he wants. And it's not as if he doesn't have friends and other family members that do care about him. And love him. It's not like he's alone in the world. Though sometimes he acts like it. He's constantly talking about his sister and Avalon. And as if that wasn't enough, he's got Matt, Teddy, Macy, Paige, Mel, Andy and Hell freeze over if I mention myself. If anything ever happens, we will always find a way to help each other out.

Asses!

2004-12-18T18:21:00.000-08:00

Ugh, I am SO pissed off at Vh1 & MTV! How can these people NOT put Evanescence on these end of the year awards. At the moment I'm watching Vh1 Top 40 music videos of '04. I mean did NO ONE see the video for Everybody's Fool? That was SO awesome. Plus Amy's so sexy. What about Amy and Seether? I love Broken. It's my friggin' anthem. People dunno good music.

Somewhere to Vent.

2004-12-15T14:06:00.000-08:00

Love is for the weak minded. I have never understood that until yesterday. Between Nicky and his suicide threats/free-will to Cody and his, well, Cody doesn't speak at all to me anymore. So I dunno, he looked really pouty today.... Anywho. Men are going to be the end of me. Erm, if you wanna call them men. I guess.
Lets start with Cody, since he's not as complicated and my feelings for him aren't either. I like Cody, I mean he's alright to talk to but, no thanks, I'll pass on anything more than that. I think if I "went" with Cody it'd be terrible for both of us. He's totally in denile anyway. We all know he just loves Christy. Maybe Caitlyn a little, too. Dunno about that one for sure. It's one of my many theories I have. So far not many of them have been true at all.
Eh, I wish Nicky was that easy. No matter what happens. We can never understand each other. I love him so much. But it doesn't seem to matter if I tell him that. I know I play around with him when he says he still loves me the same. But to be honest I don't think he does love me the same. I believe he loves me but not in the sense that I want. It's really selfish but, I can't help it. I just dunno what to do w/o him.
I think that's the first time I've actually typed/written/said that before. I mean more people than just me read this right? But lots of the people I know that read this don't go to Lake Weir. As if I cared anyway. Anyway, I feel a little better that I got some of that out. Now I'm going to find a new blog skin.

Quiz Results

2004-12-13T13:52:00.000-08:00

I AM 67% GOTH!

Oh My Goth! You Goth, Girl. There is a good chance I am bi. Freakiness pumps through my viens, but I can still laugh at myself.

Take the GOTH test at Fuali.com

12-13-04

Cruel, beautiful, ominous and evil
You are a sprite of Darkness: Most shiver at the
sound of your name, you are ominous and
something to be feared. Humans are playthings
to you, toys for your own horrid uses.
Heartless and cruel you love the pain and
hardships of others, sometimes you are the
cause. You are very beautiful on the outside
which will entrance any mortal into believing
what you lead them to, but sooner or later they
will understand the deadly ways of your true
nature. Despite your dark side you are very
talented, you have many gifts that you leave
locked up in favor of whatever else your doing
at the moment. The feeling of love is alien and
unwanted, it frightens you. Perhaps the only
thing that does, you are quite brave and things
rarely surprise or startle you.

12-13-04

In your eyes, people can't seem to see anything
because your eyes are covered up by tears! You
are constantly hurt and depressed... No one
seems to understand how you feel because
everyone is scared to get close to you... You
long to be able to reach out and tell someone
everything, and all of your problems... But you
have no one to tell, or they just don't seem to
want to hear what you have to say. You've been
hurt many times that you don't seem to have any
tears left to shed, or if you do, they're an
endless river flowing... You've started to hide
and bottle up all or your problems and
feelings, hoping that maybe they just will go
away... You want company, but at the same time,
you're scared of it. Your sanctuary is your
room where you can just be alone and try to
throw away all of your aching pains. You're
dark and mysterious and people like you for
that reason. Even if you think you're all by
yourself in the dark, someone is always there
with you. Your special someone wants to admit
and show their feelings towards you, but
they're afraid of how you'll take it. Get out
more and enjoy life because, it is far too long
to frown your way through :)

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you represent the end of life. you are cruel and
dark and hate people.

What part of life do you represent? ( AWESOME anime pics ^_^)
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Your element is Rain: Sad, lonely, distant and
unique. You are quite distant from emotion and
people, but you have been made this way by one
thing or another. You are truly unique yet fail
to see it, and are quite creative be it in art,
music, writing, ect.. You used to let people in
now you don't even bother to try having been
hurt so many times in the past. Your attitude
is that you don't need anyone but yourself,
people are just trouble waiting to happen. But
you really do want to trust someone no matter
if you see it or not, deep down your waiting
for someone to come and set you free. This kind
of depression can turn dangerous, don't let
them get to you. Not everyone in the world will
hurt you, humans are humans and are not
perfect. So most likely sooner or later you'll
meet someone who feels like you do and perhaps
your shell will eventually disappear.

.:-What is your true element?-:. -With Anime Pictures and detailed answers-
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You are Dark

You are a dark person .
Secretive, and a bit depressed. It's either by
problems in your life, or your attitude towards
things. People feel depressed or sad whenever
they're around you, but it's what you think
right? Don't care about what other people
think? I agree with you on that, but do take
care.

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you are the "I hate you so bad" happy
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not ashamed of it.

which happy bunny are you?
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BLACK

??Which colour of Death is yours??
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New News.

2004-12-05T18:09:00.000-08:00

Well, I've decided to make my story a little closer to home for my future Lake Weir readers. So if you think I really like you. Look for yourself in the next few volumes. Although some of you may not appear as, erm, well you may have a different name. I'm putting a lot of "fictional" characters in so, I may borrow your personality. (Dun worry I'll give it back when I'm done.) It's going to take me a while to get myself going again on the writing thing. It's hard for me to get my flow going so. Anywho, my lovies, Later.

(BTW Nazns, what in the hell happened to the lil Christmas thingy I wanted to do?!)

Chaos Ideas

2004-12-04T05:41:00.000-08:00

Eris
Eris was the constant companion of Ares (the God of War). Eris was the Spirit of Discord as well as the Goddess of Strife. She was Night's daughter and the mother of Battle, Slaughter, Dispute, Lawlessness - I think you get the point. She is most known for throwing the Golden Apple of Discord, which, by the way, began the Trojan War through Aphrodite. Eris was also said to be the twin of Ares.

Notes from my binder about Chaos. Towards the end Eris will become more... aggressive, as will my character. Night, Battle, Slaughter, Dispute and Lawlessness will all make their depute sometime in the story. I will also talk about the Trojan War, and the possiblity of Eris having a twin. If you didn't already figure out, out of War, Discord and Strife comes Eris' father and daughters. The "constant companion" of Ares would make sense if you think about what would cause war. So yes, there will be a "war" within the Nazns, caused of course by me after I join later on. Are you ready?

Ugh.

2004-11-29T18:21:00.000-08:00

~glares at radio~ You know what I just noticed? JOJO SUCKS. -_- I could SO do that.... But whatever, I spent my sick day working on my beautiful bloggy. XD And when we went to the mall we stopped at Spencer's (of course... how can you not stop at Spencer's?) but I found TWO posters I want for Christmas. ~Hint Hint~ I want the Amy Lee and the brokenwing poster. Yay. XD

Tada!

2004-11-28T09:53:00.000-08:00

I spent the entire weekend with Felicia, so I'm tired now. Anywho, there's a song here I found in her room that I like a lot.
Ghost of You
By Good Charlotte
I will wait until the end
When the pendulum, does swing back to the darker side of our hearts bleeding
And I will save this empty space next to me
Like its a grave where I lay, a place for us to sleep eternally together
I have been searching for traces of what we were
A ghost of you is all that I have left
It's all I have left you to hold
I wake in the night to find there's no one there but me
There's nothing left of what we were at all
So here I am
Pacing around this house again
With a picture of us living on these walls
I see my breath in the cold of the air that I breathe and I'm wondering if it's you that I feel
I'm not looking for anything but us
Anything but what we were
I'm not asking for painted memories; I only want to know if your here

Moo.

2004-11-25T18:18:00.000-08:00

Hey, this is my first post. Yay! XD I have to thank all the little people I had to step on to get to the top. Hi Macy. :D ~kisses~ Anywho, I'm starting over from the beginning; Xanga blows anyway. BLAH. I'm going to the movies tomorrow wif Felicia. :) I'm also going to try and get my mommy to take me to JCPenny's early tomorrow morning. They have that 5:30am to noon sale so that's gotta be worth atleast one new hoodie. I'm so tired of the one I have now. The pink panther. The glitter's coming off. >.<>